I did my best to seem collected, but inside I was a mass of shock and confusion. He had known this throughout our friendship. Finally, after a very long and pained introduction, he told me he was gay. He couldn't stick to one topic of conversation. The situation became more peculiar as I watched him. This itself was strange, because we usually talked quite naturally on any subject. That night, one of my closest friends sat me down to talk. I dismissed the sign as propaganda for the coming Gay/Lesbian Awareness Day (GLAD).
Concluding positively that not one was gay. One morning last spring, a poster on my door said "Do you know that someone you care about is gay?" As I walked to breakfast, I ran my mind over people I cared about. And despite the standard jokes, deep down homosexuality made me very uncomfortable. I saw homosexuality as corruption of "real" sexuality, an unfortunate element to be restricted or supressed where possible. Like the rest of society, I viewed them as unnatural and disgusting. These influences helped to shape my view of homosexuality. Homosexuality was spotlighted only once: when the women's studies class invited a lesbian to speak and half the parents called up to complain. At school, the words "gay" and "fag" were used only as insults to students so awkward or unpopular that the term "wimp" would not do. We all regarded Anita as somewhat off the wall, but not out of any deeply felt views on homosexuality. From then on, the issue was absent from conversation at home, except when something about Anita Bryant came on the news. When I was seven, my mother talked to me about people called "fairies." She warned me to watch out for them, explaining that their existence was a pity for them and a nuisance for the rest of us. My contact with homosexuality until then was probably quite standard. The focus on gay men as opposed to lesbians is only a reflection of my personal knowledge.Ī year ago, no one I knew was openly gay. I hope to support all who are oppressed because of their sexual orientation. As a straight person talking primarily to other straights. Similar thing happened on the bus this week, I was sat behind them and cos they had shorts on (mini UK heat wave this week) and I had jeans on, this may seem daft, but felt a bit jealous whenever their legs touched.Gay people are engaged in an ongoing struggle to have their rights recognized and respected. Maybe i"m just envious but like Connor as a best mate type thing. I suppose I felt a tad jealous/ left out but was focused on my mate Connor.Īny thoughts? Dunno if its just lads being lads but they seemed really into eachother. basically got a hard on watching them and just sat observing for about twenty mins.
WHY AM I GAY FOR MY BEST FRIEND PS4
Daniel (my othe mate) and him were over the other day and we played PS4 and chilled and after coming back from the kitchen I found the pair of them wrestling on the sofa and it spilled onto the floor. We are all into football etc and don't seem feminine (and best mates like really close) but I have heard rumours at least one may be gay.įunny thing is I feel attracted to them but my best friend especially, call him Connor for arguments sake. There are three of us (all turned 18 this year), who have known eachother since we were little and always chill together. I think I'm probably bi and even though I am sometimes attracted to woman, I have some bizarre feelings about my male mates. I am new to the forum and just wanted some advice about some feelings I've been having lately.